Life in my tornado

  Per usual, my life has taken strides with the same grace as the Tasmanian Devil. We have moved into our own place, albeit renting , it’s still our own. Finally freedom to rule my domain with all the color schemed, pattern specific tendencies my OCD requires. This has helped my depression tremendously. For the […]

Sweatpants and Flip Flops – Pulling Yourself Out Of Depression When Everyone Else is Busy Feeling Bad For You

    Over the past few weeks of life taking a giant deuce on me I’ve sat and pondered where exactly things went from inconvenient , possibly borderline annoying to ‘ are you f****ng kidding me all ready?!?!!!’. The amount of horseshit I’ve had to deal with over the most recent months has pushed be […]

Pieces of Your Heart That You Don’t Get Back

  It’s a funny thing grief, not like funny haha, more like ‘do they make lifetime specials about me’ kind of funny. For me, experiencing the loss of a loved one, specifically my grammy when I was 11 to brain/lung cancer, was a very abstract and confusing thing. She had been sick for a long […]

On Why Labels are Self Limiting, For Lazy People and Generally Just Bullshit

    When you are going through cognitive behavioral therapy and you take an honest look back into the mitigating factors and influences that shaped your emotional character you start to question a lot of “standards”. I’ve always been told I was emotional or moody, I came off as disinterested or naive. I coasted though […]

Return To Sender

Less than 48 hours until my uterus gets returned to sender for defective equipment . I’ve been rummaging through the inner sanctum of my feelers and dusted off these things called ” feelings” . spoiler they’re confusing , massively uncomfortable and exhausting . Kind of like what happens when I binge out of the vending […]